December's Rain is never forgiving.

Happy Birthday!

2010-04-03T03:40:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday GuanYingMa!

Amidst all the bullshit that happened, I must still wish you happy birthday!

Although this is probably the most fucked up birthday ever, I hope you enjoyed yourself during the good bits la :)

I'm grateful to still have you as a friend.

I mean this from the bottom of my heart.

I yearn to spend your next birthday with you :)

Fool.

2010-04-03T03:04:00.001-07:00

How the gods have made fun of me.

I laughed at myself in the bathroom cubicle.

I laughed so hard I started to tear.

I laughed so hard, I knew that this time the joke was on me.

I can help no one.

I can do nothing.

How can one so helpless even hope to help anybody?

I fulfilled the role of the over-reacher this time, no doubt.

Phaeton, Icarus, whatever you call it.

This lesson has been painful.

I have paid the price.

I am sorry.

I will stay within the lines.

If I am to help the world, who is to help me?

2010-04-01T00:48:00.000-07:00

I will help you.

I will be your light.

I will give you ten thousand hugs, if you need ten hugs.

I rather sacrifice us, so you will not suffer.

I'm back here again, december's raindrops, because once again I require a place to confide.

What am I to do?

Should I even be part of this?

I don't know what to think anymore, but I think anyway, because that is the only thing I know how to do.

Update

2009-11-20T13:29:00.000-08:00

I've moved into hall.

One semester has passed.

I'm preparing for exams.

I have a bad feeling about exams.

I have no time.

I've been neglecting everyone close around me.

I've adopted 2 kittens, Cloud and Ice.

I pamper them too much.

So, I'm going pretty much bankrupt.

REI(S) has made it to Ben and Jerry's @ Dempsey, after many months of hard work at Cathay!

I like the curry chicken at the new Chinese Cuisine stall at hall 11.

I miss my mother's cooking.

I miss my rented apartment, but somehow I'm fine living apart from everyone.

I realized, that I enjoy the solitude.

I spent last night thinking about many things.

Past, Present, Future.

And honestly, I'm not sure about anything anymore.

More Songs.

2009-09-01T23:58:00.000-07:00

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

The Fray - How To Save A Life

Onerepublic - Apologize

The Way You Look Tonight

Pearl Jam - Last Kiss

The Calling - Wherever You Will Go

John Mayer - Daughters

John Mayer - Bigger Than My Body

John Mayer - No Such Things

Time is running out.

2009-07-10T09:02:00.001-07:00

Time is running out.

I Don't Know.

2009-06-22T09:53:00.000-07:00

I Don't Know.

I Really Don't.

URGH.

Random thoughts

2009-05-14T12:42:00.000-07:00

The table was rowdy

The chatter of random topics

Overflowing from the cups of their minds

Nobody listens, nobody bothers

Everybody wants to talk

I watch, as an outsider

Observing, bearing the brunt, alone

And it all seems laughable, suddenly

How I came here, wanting

Yet now, I dreaded my presence

It was an issue of US and THEM

Inevitable, the repulsion

There was a cat

Gently licking its paws, staring into blank space

Like how it did a day before, and many days before that

And I realized how jealous I was

Unable to be as it was

She responds, showing signs of concern

A necessary display of emotion

Ah, I understand, of course.

You need to show that you care

I don't blame you, my dear.

For I care, and I understand.

Yet, I cannot help but feel sad

Sad for myself, and sad for you.

Hmm.

2009-05-14T12:22:00.000-07:00

Busy busy busy!

I have to internalize everything Alvin and Ben gave me during my lessons at Soma.
I have to work out and memorize lyrics for all the songs I'm singing at the Muse Tribute gig.
I have to work out and practise and memorize all the songs I'm playing at Ben and Jerry's on Monday 18th May with Roger and Weiquan my best buddies in music. <3
I have to work out and practise and memorize all the songs I'm playing at Ben and Jerry's on 16th May for my own acoustic set.
I have to work out and practise and memorize all the songs I'm playing at Tang's Orchard on 23rd May which includes a very very very finger aching song Sweet Child of Mine. URGH.

Sometimes I think that I get myself too busy and I leave too many details out. Things that I should remember. Things that matter. But they simply slip my mind, not because they are not important, but because I've got too many things running around in my head.

-Thanks for the organizer :)

I think, that somehow, things have been different.

I just feel that you don't want to see me anymore.

I get that vibe.

And so, I know what to do.

It's been what, almost a year or so? I don't even know exactly cos I can't remember.

It's so funny when I think back. I am smiling.

I found beauty in what we had.

Everything went by so slowly.

The walks in the park, they slurred in comparison to the running children. We were alone, and I listened, in that little bubble that surrounded you and I.

You'd always smile and say you're okay. Maybe sometimes you were not, but I could see that you were trying your best. And that, made me want to give you a hug each time.

I know that perhaps I have erred. I know that you blame me.

I don't know what to say anymore.

I have lost, another one of the rare, beautiful gems in my life, again.

I suppose, that this is goodbye.

Newly uploaded vids.

2009-05-02T13:24:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/user/evangoh1987

I'm sorry.

2009-04-23T11:46:00.000-07:00

I always thought stepping back and giving space was essential.

I guess this time, I was wrong.

I suppose when both sides wait, and nobody makes the first move, then there will be no result.

Don't misunderstand.

You only had to holler.

24/7, right?

You only had to holler.

But sometimes, we want a helping hand without having to ask.

I understand.

I think, explanations don't count for anything at this point.

I hope apologies, do.

I'm sorry.

And so, I said nothing, since then.

2009-04-23T10:40:00.000-07:00

Why have you been so silent?

I have heard nothing, since then.

And so, I said nothing, since then.

I was clothed, prepared and ready to leave.

But you've left already.

And so, I said nothing, since then.

You needed to rest.

So, I said nothing, since then.

You were reluctant, weren't you?

I said nothing, since then.

They were there, weren't they?

Said nothing, since then.

Since they were there, I waited.

Nothing, since then.

For an "I'm ok!"

Since then.

Nothing at all.

Then.

How was I supposed to know?

.

I hope you're fine.

I'm sorry, too.

OH YES AND I FORGOT TO MENTION!

2009-04-18T12:19:00.000-07:00

THE BEN AND JERRY'S MANAGER TOLD ME TO HAVE AN ICE CREAM FOR FREE!

HOHO!!

Not a single scoop, or double scoop... but a BELGIAN WAFFLE! Worth $13.50!!

I never bought that cos I always thought it was too expensive and today... I GOT IT FREE!!

WOOOOHOOOOO!

I feel so loved! XD

I'm back.

2009-04-18T10:15:00.000-07:00

Wow, my last post was on 3rd March.

And now its, 18th April.

It's been a month since I've blogged.

Hmm....

Okay! The reason why I'm blogging now is because I'm very happy!

Good enough reason eh?

Well, today I performed yet again at Ben and Jerry's at the Cathay.

I was early, and since the 7pm slot guys pungseh-ed Ben and Jerry, the guy asked me whether I wanted to take 2 slots, since mine was supposed to start at 8pm.

So, I just went up and sang.

I exhausted my set by 8.10, and was doing random songs after that.

The crowd was great!

5-6 dudes from RP, 2 girls sitting in front mouthing the words for Dashboard Confessional's As Lovers Go, the 4 girls from VJ on the right who can sing and are auditioning soon for Ben and Jerry's Open Mic, as well as everyone who was listening to me.

Great, great audience today!

I'm bored of my set already... been doing it for my past 4 performances at Ben and Jerry's... so it's time to get up some new songs for my next set on the 16th of May, 7pm.

I'm also looking forward to working with the NUS dudes soon after their exams on 6th May.

Excited! :)

Ciaoz!

Still infected.

2009-03-03T22:30:00.001-08:00

It's been 2 days and I still feel like shit.

I'm still burning up.

I have rehearsal tomorrow.

I've learnt my lesson.

No more buying more than 100g of famous amos at one go.

I've been making gradual improvement with guitar.

I understand now what are 2-5-1's stacking onto 2-5-1's.

I understand now how the CAGED system REALLY works.

I understand that any note can work over any chord only to produce a colour/sound that is dissonant or consonant, so in other words there's actually no right or wrong in jazz context.

I understand that arpeggiating is a great way to solo because you will always hit the nice chord tones, and you will sound alot more melodic than spamming notes from various scales.

I understand that tritone substitution is very cool and I must get to reading up on it soon.

I undersand that modes are also very cool, and chords used in Locrian n Phygrian are both very interesting.

I understand that the pentatonic sounds well because it omits the 2 tension notes aka the 4th and the 7th, so even if you spam notes it will still somehow sound alright, but its musically retarded to do so.

I understand that paying 240 dollars a month to be able to learn all of this is a retarded move , but I suppose I am retarded.

That makes me both retarded, and sick.

Lalalalala

Officially Sick.

2009-03-02T17:17:00.000-08:00

Yes, I am down with a fever.

My phelgm is yellow.

I felt it last night before I slept.

I think its too much famous amos.

:(

方大同

2009-03-01T17:33:00.000-08:00

方大同 is godly.

I LOVE HIM.

I FEEL LIKE A TEENAGE GIRL.

BUT I STILL LOVE HIM.

<3 <3 <3

Fingers.

2009-03-01T13:45:00.000-08:00

Everyday my fingers ache.

Everyday I go to sleep when the sun only begins to rise.

Everyday I am drunk in the seduction of new possibilities.

Everyday I am isolated in my bubble.

Everyday I am intoxicated.

So pardon me, If I tend to be MIA.

:)

Overwhelmed.

2009-02-28T04:51:00.000-08:00

There's too much to do!!

Too little time!

AHH!

1. Figuring out intervals on guitar.
2. Familiarizing with CAGED.
3. Familiarizing with higher string triad shapes.
4. Perfecting my parts for Campus Reunion Live Concert by 21 March.
5. Preparation for my performance at Ben and Jerry's 14th March.
6. Preparation for Stardust 2009 tomorrow.
7. Preparation for PK tomorrow if I can make it, or alternatively 15 March.
8. Finish reading and internalizing my 2 books I bought aka Chord Dictionary and Music Composition.
9. Find a job amidst all this bullshit stated above and still be able to finish everything.
10. Prepare for university.

I am so dead.

Persistence.

2009-02-20T08:33:00.001-08:00

I stopped on 15th Feb.

Today is the 20th.

It's been 6 days.

I'm doing fine.

I feel alot better, I sing alot better, and I hope my voice gets back to its former glory asap.

Tomorrow is the Talentquest SemiFinals. I'm not prepared really, but heck let's do it anyways.

Ben and Jerry's Performance Part 2

2009-02-15T19:49:00.000-08:00

Music.

2009-02-15T10:42:00.001-08:00

Guitar lessons again!

Stress! Alot to do before every week's lesson...

Not to mention there's 23 songs for the Campus Superstar Reunion Concert.

And I'm still not perfect in ANY of those songs yet.

I still have not decided on the song for 21st February's Talentquest Semi-finals.

I am quitting smoking.

In short.

I am super busy.

Ben and Jerry's performance was alright, although I felt I could do so much better.

I realized that I was playing Dashboard's As Lover's Go 2 semi-tones higher than I practised, which I later sang and failed to reach the high note.

Unacceptable.

Also, I gave pretty much of a shit performance for John Mayer's Comfortable.

Only I would know because I know what was supposed to be played, but what was played sounded alright so nobody noticed.

I'll be back at Ben and Jerry's next month, on 14th of March though, so there is a chance for redemption.

As you can see, my life is now jam packed with alot of what I love, which is making me busy, but extremely satisfied.

I am officially leaving the government forces as an NSF and moving on as of 140309, which is approximately in about 26 days or so.

Liberation.

Hiatus.

2009-01-17T22:02:00.000-08:00

I didn't have much inspiration.

Musically or bloggily.

I'm going for guitar lessons at SoMA!

I just bought a cool guitar book about chords and harmony.

In short it will probably help me alot in terms of understanding music.

I will be ORD-ing in about 2 months. :D

I will also be alot poorer in about 2 months :(

I got through to TalentQuest semi-finals with my buddy Kelvin!

It will be held at Parkway Parade on 21st February, details unconfirmed as of yet.

The air on the outside smells sweet.

It's been a year.

I must say I am reluctant to stay still in one place.

I will be back, though.

A hiatus, perhaps?

I don't know the "should"s.

I only know that I need to drift to stay sane.

An Orphan's Wish

2008-12-26T23:25:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas
To everyone
Merry Christmas
To all
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
to everyone
Don't bother
Don't bother
Don't bother
about the lonely souls
tonight

Spend the evening
with your family
see the children
oh they;re beaming
so widely
as they open
their presents

Merry Christmas
to everyone
Merry Christmas
I whisper
To myself
Merry Christmas
Merry Christmas
I sing aloud
On this old oak bench
In this pristine church
with no one I know
On my left and right
nowhere left to go
For a lonely soul

On such a merry christmas night
All the sparkling lights
Aren't they such a sight
For our eyes
Isn't it a shame?
But who's to blame?
Such a beautiful night
left for waste
A young orphan's wish
left on Santa's list
didn't he deserve
a hug or a kiss
or some warmth on a christmas night?

I always believed
In Santa
I've been a good boy
I promise
Although Mum and Dad
are not around
to tell what I've said is true
You can ask the house elf
If i've ever been bad
Well but sometimes I cry
when I dream of them
hugging me to sleep

And I wake up to see they're not there
I can't help it but to be sad
Oh Sir please don't you think that I'm bad
Oh please please please please don't be mad
I only want Dad and Mum back

So she'd kiss my cheeks
tuck me into bed
and he'd take me out
tell me stories of him and his old man

Sir I don't want the stars in the sky
nor a carousel I can call mine
I just wish for a place I can call home
And my mommy she'll bring me to school
and with daddy I'll watch the cartoons
I just wish for a place I can call
Home.

Internet is down.

2008-12-26T23:24:00.001-08:00

My internet is dead.

I am unable to access the internet from home.

Thus, I am typing in this entry from camp.

Contact me by handphone.

Estimated time of recovery will be by 301208 1300HRS.

New Song

2008-12-22T05:33:00.000-08:00

Bourbon (Tribute To The Killers )

Verse:
Looked to my left then to my right
the pretty girls sitting to the side
I apologize
No drinks from me tonight

So what's your story Emily?
Why did you come here to be free
Don't you know?
Daniel's only here for company

Pre-Chorus:
You don't care do ya?
Oh we all don't care anyway
Oh you don't care do ya?
Oh it don't matter who we're dancing with

Chorus:
Waiter
gimme another glass of bourbon
Oh yes I really am certain
I really am

Waiter
oh you look awfully handsome
Can't you see Sally she wants some?
How bout after work

Verse:
Oh I know I'm hardly fine
The room spins in circles and I
I don't care
Bring on the drinks tonight

Pre-Chorus:
I don't care really
Oh we all don't give a damn
Oh you don't care do ya?
Oh it don't matter what we're drinking

Chorus:
Waiter
Gimme another glass of bourbon
Oh yes I really am certain
The night's still young

Waiter
Don't you worry I am sober
So go on get me another
Yes I'm sure

Breakdown:
Girl you know that I care
oh why'd you say that I don't
I've always been there
no matter when or where
You know i'd give it all
anything and everything
Just so we could be like
we were ten years ago
How I'd look in your eyes
you'd shyly look away
Clasped your hands into mine
and ran into the rain
Held you tight in my arms
and felt your heart beatin
we were so much in love
but now it's just...

Outro/Verse:
Loud voices ring in my ear
Someone kicked me in the rear
Oh that hurt
And I was down on the ground
Think I was rolling around?

Didn't have much strength to stand
Oh what happened to my friends?
All gone?
They won't be gone for long
At least till tomorrow night, I guess?

Sentosa!

2008-12-18T09:16:00.000-08:00

Ta Da!

English.

2008-12-16T07:51:00.001-08:00

English, to me, is a medium for communication.

A code that encrypts and decrypts information that we wish to send.

But it is most misleading, for the mere language is far from sufficient to accurately convey one's message.

It is like a puzzle, that we have to put together to make sense of the intended picture.

Everybody, with their own interpretation.

In its imperfection, there lies a beauty.

For everyone, can have their own desired opinion and thoughts of one analysed piece.

At the same time, no one can ever really decipher the most naked, true message hidden between the fabric of the text.

Who can say for sure?

Non-existent validation gives rise to room for calculated guesses.

Piecing the jigsaw puzzle together, we discover the fragility and the beauty of English.

Thank you, Mister Yeo.

You have got me this far, but I believe there is far more to understand than the superficial ramblings I have expressed during the past 5 minutes or so.

There is however, one singular event.

2008-12-14T03:00:00.000-08:00

Yes there was.

One singular event.

Thank you.

That was most, appreciated.

No one, has done that for me in a long time.

And although some may feel it is only appropriate to receive such lavishes, I never found such ceremonies, necessary.

It was most, thoughtful.

It was surreal, on the particular day.

And it is this surrealism, that distorts my reality such that I can somehow embrace this pleasure, whole and untainted.

Thank you.

Happy Birthday Evan.

2008-12-14T02:30:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to me.

Finally 21 huh?

Doesn't seem that all impressive anyways.

The only thing I'm really looking forward to is leaving the hell hole I am calling my second home now.

Everyday is another day wasted.

I am doing nothing that can contribute to my future in any way whatsoever.

Well, I must thank the organization for giving me no choice but to work out during my earlier days.

Other than fitness, everything else was a waste of my age.

I should be 19 now.

I should be in NTU English Literature doing my 2nd year.

I should be happier now.

I should be playing an active part in my mother's life now.

And the list goes on.

I realized that during these 2 years of my life, I learned nothing about being a man.

In fact, I learned more about being "responsible".

In other words, whatever you do, you must be able to cover all angles such that when accountability is questioned, you are not in danger.

I also learned fully how the superior subordinate structure works.

I have seen grown men, with families and children, bowing their head and paying their respects to 18 year old children.

Somehow I can't stand the sight of that.

In an organization like this, it doesn't matter whether you have an opinion.

It matters more how high up you are in the hierachy.

The higher you are, the more weight your words hold.

Pertaining to all alike me, who are bound to this service by order, I realized that great power is sometimes placed within the hands of people unworthy to handle this authority.

Of course, I do not intend to generalize.

There are the few who are capable, in some aspects, enough to make the correct decisions and exercise their authority fairly, justly, and appropriately.

Sadly to say, the people who are able to do so, still remain a minority.

But, who can blame them?

They are simply pawns thrown into this system, subjected to this responsibility simply because they were at a certain place, and a certain time and they fulfilled certain requirements.

Power, corrupts the soul.

Abuse of authority, is inevitable.

With such young and inexperienced personnel at the helm, wielding such authority, is madness.

Yet, it seems like the most rational solution they can come up with.

Even till today.

I see a problem, but perhaps I do not have to foresight to give a solution.

Who knows, this might be the most appropriate solution to the entire problem in the first place.

Perhaps there is a better way?

In the meantime, half a country will curse, swear and mourn for the loss of their life.

Every second that ticks by, is another second lost.

Every heartbeat, every contraction of the heart.

As I lay my fingers on my dusty, jet black Logitech keyboard of mine, I can feel my life dripping away.

Even as I suck in the wisps of grey smoke emitted from cigarettes, that I fondly call "Happy sticks."

Even as my blood fetches the chemicals to my brain and around my body.

And most importantly, as I spend every grueling nanosecond trying to weave through the web of politics, lies, deception, pure stupidity, and injustice safely.

I hope I make it out safely.

I have so many things I want to do.

But first, I must escape from this prison.

It took me so long.

2008-12-14T02:08:00.000-08:00

It took me so long.

Yet it didn't feel that long.

"Time flies."

Such an overused statement.

It suggests that time will pass quickly.

But we all know, it won't.

Every second, every minute, every hour is a calculated unit of measure.

As much as we hate to admit it, time passes at her own damn pace, whether we like it or not.

Whether you feel it is fast or slow, is entirely up to perspective.

But then again is perspective, in this context, simply a way to delude the mind and somehow provide some sort of comfort or encouragement to the troubled soul?

In short, to console is to take one's sight away from his or her potential worries, and instead focus on the possibility that everything will all be okay.

Which to me, is simply delusional and irrational.

It is almost like avoiding the entire issue, so that you can smile to yourself while the problem festers like a disease during your nonchalance.

To solve a problem, you have to go straight to the crux of it and see what needs to be done.

Unfortunately, I cannot make Time run any faster than her legs are built to take it.

I acknowledge my inability to take control of my Life holistically, and so I work within my limitations.

I cannot force myself to be ignorant, and stumble onwards with a mentality that so laughably ridiculous.

Most people disagree with me though.

Who am I to fault anyone?

But at the same time, who are you to fault me?

Cover of Wo Huai Nian De

2008-12-14T00:00:00.001-08:00

I'm recently infatuated with Stephanie Sun! :)

孙燕姿我怀念的 LYRICS

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

It's actually gay for a guy to sing it but I don't care HAHA it's too nice not to cover :D

Auditions.

2008-12-08T04:45:00.003-08:00

2 upcoming auditions.

Getting a little fussed over song choice...

Hmm..

Wednesday's coming in 2 days...

Gotta get things together!

Love Story Cover

2008-11-30T05:19:00.000-08:00

Love Story lyrics

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
Im standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights,
See the party the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did i know

That you were romeo you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from juliet
And i was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go, and i said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and i’ll be the princess
Its a love story baby just say yes

Oh, Oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When i met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me i’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, i don’t know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me juliet you’ll never have to be alone
I love you and thats all I really know
I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress
Its a love story baby just say yes
Oh,Oh
We were both young when i first saw you

Home.

2008-11-23T00:45:00.001-08:00

I am home.

Mom's off to work.

My guitars are in camp.

And so, I take the time to ponder about certain things.

4 more months, until everything ends.

4 more months, until everything starts.

Time is running out, with or without me trying to hold it back.

What more, does this wretched world need from me?

Who else, am I supposed to be?

It is most unfortunate, that although we play different roles in our lives, we are only accustomed to those that we invent.

Whether to patronize, or to protect.

MIA

2008-11-20T21:03:00.000-08:00

I have been missing in action for quite some time.

What have I been doing?

After coming back from Aus I helped out in the filming of a independent short film at Geylang.

It was pretty fun, especially since it was my first time trying out acting.

I signed up for Impressario 2009.

Dream chasing, still.

I'm kinda broke, after the trip to Aus.

It was so, so very sinful.

There's a million people I need to catch up with.

Georgina Mei
Jiaqi jie
Yanni bro
Yingjie
Huishan
Dawn
Cheri
Jingyi
Theresa
Charlene
Regina
Erica
Rachelle
Felicia
Rachel Parsley
Ken
Valerie
Lee-Ann
Sindhu
Jeremiah
Jiayan
Juliet
Vivi
Sanjay
and..... others that I can't remember =/

Let's meet up soon k?

Gotta catch up!!

I'm back!

2008-11-15T01:22:00.000-08:00

There's probably alot of things to talk about after my trip.

I'll take time to catch all those floating bubbles whizzing around my head n put it down into words here some other time.

I'm kinda numb really.

I can't exactly spell out what's going on, but it seems I need a break.

A Kit-Kat, maybe?

Bon Voyage?

2008-10-19T16:45:00.000-07:00

Ciaoz~

Be back in 3 wks =D

I might be able to use the camp computer, and if I do I'll blog :)

Take care everybody!

Inevitable.

2008-10-12T09:04:00.000-07:00

It is, undoubtedly, inevitable.

God created our world and its laws with fundamental flaws so obscene it screams out, exposed and naked for everyone to see.

Some are ignorant to the irony.

Some are aware, and rebel.

Some acknowledge, and resign.

Unfulfilled desires, create a neverending cycle of suffering.

There is no happy ending, but only a system of processes.

Processes that begin and end, and begin again, and end again.

Human relationships look uncannily similar to the simple diagrams of supply and demand.

Our choices are so predictable, simply because we are driven by the same collective desires.

It is so laughable.

Haha.

Recorded.

2008-10-12T07:53:00.001-07:00

So we recorded the song.

I guess, I could've done better.

If it were up to me, I'd do a few more takes to perfect it.

Oh well... =/

It's been a long long awhile since I've been in contact with alot of friends.

It's not that I don't miss you guys, its just that I've been too preoccupied to even miss you.

I don't have much time to myself either, sigh...

Looking forward to meeting up with everyone n catching up!!

:)

Recording.

2008-10-11T21:33:00.001-07:00

Today, we're doing our very first recording, if all goes as it is planned.

3 Doors Down - Here Without You

Finally, some action!!

I'm gonna miss the ThatsAStar guys during my Aus trip so so much =/

It's been almost a regular affair every week now, and we're always having fun together... be it taking photos, or singing, or doing crazy stupid shit.

Be back on the 13th!

Loves <3

Hope it helped.

2008-10-11T21:32:00.000-07:00

Hope you smiled for real this time :)

Happy Birthday.

Self-Reminders.

2008-10-06T12:48:00.000-07:00

1. Pack toolbox items into DUFFEL BAGS before 16th of October or else I'm doomed.
2. Calibrate torque wrenches before packing them into the DUFFEL BAGS or else I'm doomed.
3. Buy sunglasses.
4. Buy jungle hat.
5. Bring clothes hangars.
6. Bring grenade pouch.
7. Do newly arrowed ECO and Hangar shutter nonsense every week or 2 weeks ( Find out )
8. Update monthly checks for tools before leaving for Aus.
9. Purchase 2009 organizer for myself to use after ORD.
10. Find time to finish watching Prison Break Season 1, 2 and 3.
11. Find time to record my two new songs.
12. Purchase new shoes so that I don't have to always wear new balance.
13. Purchase a presentable watch.
14. Purchase some new accessories because my choker is so passe.
15. Remember to change some cash to Aussie dollars for shopping.
16. Guard Duty on 13th of October.
17. Find time to finish reading the comics I bought.
18. Find out more about my university course so that I won't be a lost sheep when I do start uni.
19. Finalize the song to sing for my rehearsal on the 18th or 19th.
20. Finish up my presents.
21. Try to buy a SARS face mask cos Aus is sandy.
22. Maintain Silver for IPPT.
23. Watch Connected.
24. Save up for laptop in uni.
25. Push Zhiyang for the multimeter calibration details.

Mom's Birthday!

2008-10-06T12:46:00.000-07:00

Buffet at Novena today!

Boy was it expensive... $42.50 per pax

There was quite a large variety to choose from though, and I did leave the restaurant with a tummy bloated.

So I guess it was well worth the money :)

Mom says she wants some Zhuang Zi book.

Urgh, It's pretty hard to find... but I'll try =/

Home.

2008-10-03T13:42:00.001-07:00

Woah.

I was drinking.

Alot.

Of.

Alcohol.

Time to sleep...

It's been awhile.

2008-09-30T06:17:00.000-07:00

Since any updates.

Hmm...

Since I left off I was doing nothing much really...

Just, bumming around.

At home, or in camp.

I'm leaving for Australia soon!

Perhaps 18th, 19th or 20th of October.

"Packed my bags, I'm ready to go... "

IPPT on 8th October... gotta work out to get back my fitness to at least a Silver... =/

Audition on 18th or 19th of October... Gotta decide on a song and recover from my illness.

I'm not really sure what kind of illness it is, but it is very persistent.

Over the past 5 days, it has stuck around me like a plague.

I'm not running a fever, yet I'm feeling warm all the time.

I have a constant headache.

My throat hurts.

I sneeze randomly.

I don't know if its a cold, or a cough, or whatever.

But it is disturbing.

I need to recover from this shit.

I might sound moody, or need more time to recuperate.

Sorry!

Bear with me for awhile longer, alright?

:)

Kbox after midnight.

2008-09-23T04:39:00.000-07:00

It left me sleeping all the way till 1920 today.

That's a total of 15 hrs of sleeping.

...

Anyways, I have decided that I will have to start taking some sort of singing lessons so that I can sing properly and not "anyhow sing".

It's time I started getting serious.

New Song. Again.

2008-09-21T03:58:00.000-07:00

This one's dedicated to everybody else who's actually had the guts to try this.

If you know what I mean.

Number 37

Verse:
There she was!
Number 37 hangin offa her chest
Acting so demure
I kinda believed it I confess

So baby what's your story?
The same old lies you told the one before?
Well quit you're smiling at me
Cos all you want's my money Of course I know

But still I am here
Looking for the sin that lies within us all
Oh yes I found the devil
The devil's inviting me behind those glass walls

Chorus:
You're so pretty don't you know?
Its a pity that we met like this
You've got me wanting more
from every single lying kiss
Behind closed doors
acting our roles in this
Masquerade of love
Yeah, it felt so good

Verse:
Guilt-free
It's easy once you get the hang of it
Yeah you'll be back for more
With the devil asking, "Boy, whatcha waitin for?"

Watch out!
This pleasure is far from safe my friend
Well deals with the devil are far from safe
I said that deals with the devil are far from safe

Chorus:
You're so pretty don't you know?
Its a pity that we met like this
You've got me wanting more
from every single lying kiss
Behind closed doors
acting our roles in this
Masquerade of love
Yeah, it felt so good

Enjoy!

More more more!!

2008-09-16T07:33:00.001-07:00

The guys...

All of us!

E ladies...

The ladies in a weird pose...

That's all folks!

More Pics from ThatsAStar!

2008-09-15T17:35:00.000-07:00

Parsley, Lee-Ann and I.

Group Pics!

The Ladies... Hmm...

These are just some of the photos taken by Photographer Mr Radha Krishnan. The entire photoshoot can be viewed at http://picasaweb.google.com/elephant18/YouthActiity

Support ThatsAStar by going to our website http://www.thatsastar.com or adding us on your facebook/friendster by simply searching ThatsAStar!

More ThatsaStar pics!

2008-09-11T07:59:00.000-07:00

Yeah I know. We all try our best.

Clarice the ghost girl and Arrys the guitar girl!

I am in the background... teeheehee... That's Denise, btw! Kawaiii nehh =D

BBBBBlllluuuuurrrrrr.............

Melodies.

2008-09-11T07:44:00.000-07:00

Melodies.

Patterns, arrangements of notes float around the empty room.

A dead, wheat colour stains the four walls.

Lifeless.

Yet it is embroidered with harmonies that hang off the cobwebs and rustle when the dust cakes brush the icy porcelain tiles.

It's amazing how Music brings such colour to our lives.

Melodies.

Money.

2008-09-11T07:43:00.001-07:00

Money makes the world go round.

I need money. Lots of it. So that I can chase my dreams.

Fuck.

ThatsAStar updates.

2008-09-11T07:28:00.000-07:00

All of us!!

Unprepared, really.

What we do when we're bored.

A photo being taken of me getting my photo taken. Hmm.

Likewise.

New Song. Finally.

2008-09-06T10:44:00.000-07:00

After the past busy weeks, I finally sat down to churn out some melodies I had in my head.

A new chinese number, Zhi De.

Zhi De

Verse:
Chong fu wen zi ji
zhe zhi bu zhi de
Xian zai de zi ji
Shi fou
bi guo qu hao ne?

Pre-Chorus:
Yan qian de ni
you dui wo sha xiao zhe
Ni ying gai bu dong
wo xin li zai xiang she me

Verse:
Tian kong zhong de yun
Li wo tai yao yuan le
Huai nian zhe guo qu
cheng jing ao xiang zhe

Pre-Chorus:
Qing ai de ni
yi ding bu dong
wo huai nian zhe
zi you zi zai de fei xing

Chorus:
Hai ji de liang shuang de feng
chui zhe wo
Yi qi zhou
Zhan chi gao fei zai xin kong
duo me zi you

yao xiang zhuo zhou
hai shi wang you zhou
jiu sui wei feng ta
dai wo piao liu

Chorus 2:
Duo huai nian zai ye kong zhong
Tang zhe yun
kan xin xin
Dan zhe yi qie dou zhi neng
liu zai hui yi

Ying wei wo xuan zhe le
ning yuan shou hu zhe ni
yong wo de zi you
huan ni kai xin

Wo Ai Ni

Hope you guys like it!

Hopefully I'll be done with another next week...

Ciaoz!

Busy Busy Busy

2008-09-02T07:38:00.000-07:00

It's been a busy week.

Hence the lack of posts.

Will have more updates soon!

Competition.

2008-08-25T09:55:00.000-07:00

Only 5 will be able to go through the workshops free of charge.

The competition is tough.

Really tough.

I've heard some of the most angelic voices during the mere 5 hours.

Gotta up my game.

Everyone.

2008-08-23T21:07:00.000-07:00

Everyone, a lighted candle.

Some burning brightly, sharing their warmth.

Others, hide their light in a corner, too afraid to show their presence.

The wind blows, and our flames flicker.

Some go out, and the liquid wax slightly below the wick starts to solidify.

Somehow it symbolizes the end; how the candle has lost its continuity.

Some remain lit, as the wills of our fighting spirit command the wick to rekindle.

Everyone, a lighted candle.

So fragile, so weak.

We will burn out one day, for it is the way we are made.

And as I lay sprawled on the cold, hard cement, a liquid mess; Burn on brightly.

For my wishes will go out to all of you to stay strong, before the temperature of the air leads me to my demise.

An extinguished, solidified end.

Live Webcast

2008-08-23T20:56:00.000-07:00

Hmm... Live Webcast to the "show".

Apparently this is some pre-season thingie that involves certain workshops that are beneficial to us as individuals and performers.

http://thatsastar.com/pages/live-webcast/

This brings you to the webcast page.

It is supposed to begin at 4pm and it will end at 9pm... but seriously its quite crazy to watch a bunch of people mingle around for 5 hrs on your computer screen when you could be playing dota, listening to your favourite music, chatting with your friends, or even watching certain orgasm-inducing material.

So, if you're bored and got absolutely nothing to do....

You could simply check it out, every Sunday, from 4pm to 9pm.

Cheers!

Waves.

2008-08-23T09:50:00.000-07:00

I plant my feet into the filthy, brownish sand.

Damp with the green sea water, the grains stick to my toes.

Yet, I am smiling.

You should smile too.

The both of you.

Life is too short for us to worry about unnecessary, hypothetical situations.

Especially at your age.

Enjoy adolescence while you can.

Soon, you will loathe what reality has in stall for you.

But till then, you should smile.

Smile, happy smiles.

Seconds.

2008-08-22T21:06:00.001-07:00

Shimmer after shimmer, you exploded into small fragments of bright, pockets of glitter, lighting up the cloudy night sky.

We could hardly see the stars, but instead we saw a worthy substitute.

The wisps of white smoke dimmed in comparison.

No one notices the by-product.

Unwanted, it drifts by as everybody's gaze remains on the impending display of lights and sounds.

Even when it was right in front of us, it wasn't part of the show.

So, we simply ignore.

The superficiality of the human race is exposed, in mere seconds of our everyday life.

Yet we like to deny it.

Ever so often.

It begins.

2008-08-22T21:03:00.000-07:00

Finally, ThatsaStar begins!

The first workshop commences on 240808, Sunday 4pm-9pm.

This means I have to rush there after Army Half Marathon.

Urgh.

Hopefully I can still sing after the run =/

I'm probably going to meet people who are so much more talented than I am.

But I'm not giving up though.

I'm not that bad either.

Fun with Cameras!

2008-08-16T07:03:00.000-07:00

Random guy in a cloak.

Winry Rockbell from FMA! God she's cute.

Our favourite lady in black latex holding a whip and red candles, ready to fulfil our sado-masochistic desires.

Viceroy Menthol Lights. My late night companion.

I know. I know.

My favourite Bicycle Ghost Deck spread in a one hand fan.

Me with a blank fan, trying too hard to look cool.

The sexy black and white lady that sleeps with me every night. The sounds that you make drive me up the wall baby :P

Legs. Mmm...

Field Camp is over!

2008-08-15T09:04:00.001-07:00

Monday to Wednesday was field camp.

Nice areas for deployment... nice sandy areas.

Less mozzies too!

Came back to camp on Thursday morning 3am or so.

Had RSAF 40th Anniversary Parade Rehearsal on Friday, which is today.

I dislike being in parades.

But.... suck thumb lo. :(

Well, that's pretty much for the updates.

4am.

2008-08-10T13:05:00.000-07:00

It's 4am in the morning.

And I am wide awake.

I've been thinking.

Too much, maybe?

So many, coulds, woulds, what ifs, and whys.

These questions do not have corresponding answers.

Rather, there are only approximations.

Speculated, rough estimates.

And it is this dreadful uncertainty, that creates this paranoia that is so prevalent in the air right now.

I take a deep breath, and the cold chilly air invades my lungs.

I breathe out, and the wisps of grey twirl in the air like coiled serpents.

I should quit, I know.

But at 4am, and this much on my mind, how can I?

Ages.

2008-08-10T13:03:00.000-07:00

Georgina wo ke ai de mei mei!!!!

It's been ages since we've met up!

And yes, I missed you :D

Hmm, thanks for the updates...

It seems you trust me enough to tell me, so my lips are sealed.

You have my support :)

Go ahead and search for love, wherever it may be.

Hugs :)

Freedom.

2008-08-09T08:21:00.000-07:00

I am a person.

Yes, I am.

I have my own right, and my own free will to do what I wish to do, whenever I wish to.

Nobody, has any right to tell me otherwise.

Unless, for some reason I am compelled to compromise.

Now, there is no longer a need to abide by pointless rules and regulations.

I shall do what I want, when I want.

You can't stop me.

Just try to.

Memories.

2008-08-09T08:16:00.000-07:00

Our memories, are so fragile.

It's so convenient, how we say, "I'm sorry, I forgot."

Our reality is only as existent as our memories are.

What we know, what we believe, what we feel, is all a part of our consciousness.

And this consciousness, is built upon our recollections of the past.

I hold my memories dear, so dear I fear the day I lose them.

Because when I lose them, I lose myself.

It finally ends.

2008-08-09T08:05:00.001-07:00

After months of hard work, NDP 2008 is finally over.

It was fun, regardless of the ups and downs.

Regina, Hong Yan, Afina, Christine, Diana, Wenxin, Dawn, Jingyi, Cheri, Theresa, Melissa, Vivien, Sorethroat Girl, Erica, Priscilla, Liwei, Wei Ling, Rachelle, Jingfang, Amanda, Adeline, Rebecca, Wei Ling, Valerie, Junie, Swee Kiow, Staff Randy, Trainers, Teachers, and everybody else I forgot to mention... Or rather everybody else whose name I don't know.

Thank you all.

Regardless of the needless politics, and unnecessary worry, I still enjoyed myself.

Now that my job is done, I have finally put down a huge burden of responsiblity, and the need to maintain a pristine image.

Hopefully, we will all remain good friends after this event.

I will remember you.

Will you remember me?

Lullaby For The Broken

2008-08-08T11:12:00.000-07:00

Verse:
So many hours
So many minutes
Away..
Away from you

A thousand kisses
Would never be enough
To keep me holding out
from you

Pre-chorus:
Edge closer
Now that we're a breath away
Face to face
I'll plant my lips on yours

I'm lost
In this little maze of ours
Keep the lids on your eyes
And you'll be mine tonight

Chorus:
Slowly
Softly
I whisper in your ear
You got nothing to fear
oh darlin
Hush now
and lay back
down
the stars up in the sky
won't peek us at tonight

Verse 2:
The dawn is breakin
I'm greeted by your scent
And I glance down
to see if you're there
really there

Don't you vanish
linger in my arms
for a little bit more
just a little bit more

Pre-chorus:
Edge closer
Run a finger through your hair
You look down to the side
I lift your chin
You close your eyes

Chorus:
Slowly
Softly
We're locked in sweet embrace
and time it starts to fade away
Hush now
and lay back
down
the stars up in the sky
they'll shine for us tonight

And maybe
Just maybe
Tonight will never end
And I will always be your man
But I know
You have to go
Away
Someday
Would you remember what we said

How we would climb the Eiffel Tower
Walk the aisles of Westminster Church
dive deep into the Oceans
and see the mermaids wave to us
Take a stroll down Bali's beaches
pick the seashells from the shore
With the stars as our witness
Would you remember me at all

Chorus:
Slowly
Softly
I gazed into your eyes
and lost myself in sweet desire
Hush now
and sleep so sound
I'm watching over you
Like I always do

Completed as of 0200 on 090808. :)

I'm here.

2008-08-08T10:36:00.000-07:00

I'm here, my dear.

Call me, when you're happy, or when you're sad, or when you're feeling nothing at all.

I've heard you laugh, I've heard you cry, and I've heard you when you're silent.

I know you don't like sharing your problems with people.

Neither do I.

Yet we wish to shoulder everybody else's burdens.

It seems we are alike, somehow.

I'm worried.

Really, really worried.

Especially since the last thing I heard, was you bursting into tears.

I'm sorry I couldn't be there to lend you a shoulder, or give you a hug, because I would if I could.

Tomorrow, you are probably going to put on your most presentable smile, and report for the event.

I know, because I've done this before.

I understand how painful it is, to hide it all in and bite your lips in agony.

Yet we do it.

Know that I'm always here for you.

Always.

It's just a simple story.

2008-08-02T21:26:00.000-07:00

Yes it is.

So intricately simple.

It's so sad, that humans have only one heart.

It's even more tragic, that no matter what we do, there are only 24 hours in a day.

Sometimes, there is this uncontrollable desire to want to protect the world.

It creeps into my consciousness, like a plague, silently but surely infecting my mind.

But is it a bad thing?

Or is it even possible?

It's so sad, that humans have only one heart.

And the more people I try to protect, the smaller the share is.

Those who used to get more, will then question, "Why?"

Sadly, I have no answer.

I wish I had a bigger heart.

But didn't you notice?

You're share has always been here.

Or is it that the fragment is too small, for you to see?

Or is it because you don't want to see, anymore?

Nevertheless, you will always have that special piece, my little fairy :)

And so, it's just a simple story.

So intricately simple.

But it's us humans, that make things too complex to fathom.

On dark, lonely nights.

2008-08-02T09:20:00.000-07:00

On dark, lonely nights.

The glitter of the stars light up the sleepy, night sky.

They blink, and the gleam flickers.

On and off.

On and off.

I'm mesmerized by you, and the beauty of your unrelenting shine.

I reach out, and with tired hands I attempt to capture you in my palm.

I fail, but I already know I would.

It's like a dream, a fantasy I can never fulfil.

To catch the stars in my hands and keep one for myself.

On dark, lonely nights.

I dream.

Dry your tears.

2008-08-02T09:15:00.000-07:00

Dry your tears.

Both of you.

The blame shouldn't be on your shoulders.

Don't you even dare to assume the responsibility.

The fault is probably mine.

But, I am no pushover.

I don't see a reason why I should tolerate behaviour that I cannot accept.

I already did, on many occasions.

I have my right to my freedom.

So it isn't your fault at all.

Dry your tears, the both of you.

And smile.

I'll miss you.

2008-08-02T09:11:00.000-07:00

Your toothy grins.

Your infatuation with him.

Your late night complaints.

Our chats.

The void deck at Chong Pang with your pretty friend.

Maths tuition at KFC.

I'll miss you.

I suppose this a one-sided affair anyway.

Goodbye.

Inspiration x 3 !!!

2008-08-01T07:11:00.001-07:00

2 songs out today!!

Chen jiu gan duo duoooooooo :P

Eh... This one is closer to my roots when I started composing... Hope you guys like it :)

Love, Love, Love

Verse:
The world is full of danger
And I know, its not easy
Everybody's just a stranger
And you wonder, if you're alone

When you wake up in the morning
Do you tell yourself the same old things
Every hour every minute every second
slips by under our noses

Pre-Chorus:
Well we're sick
All so sick
Don't know what we're chasing after
And we're lost
All so lost
In our hypocritic laughter

Forgeting
love, love, love.

Pre-Chorus 2:
Yet we live
yeah we live
Contribute to the cycle
We'll have kids
Many kids and
teach the hypocritic laughter

Forgeting
love, love, love.

Chorus:
Well I'm always by your side
Won't you holler if you need me
If the nights they get too gloomy
Turn around and i'll be there

Wipe the tears from your eyes
I don't wanna see you cryin
Take my hand and stand up baby
and go on go on yeah

Well I'm always by your side
Won't you holler if you need me
Even if you don't believe
I'll steal the stars down for you

Smile a great big smile
Show the world that you're happy
Know that you are never lonely
and we'll go on go on yeah

Inspiration Inspiration!

2008-08-01T01:48:00.000-07:00

Another chinese song off the top of my head.

The result of hard work for 4 hrs non stop! :)

Gen Wo Zou

Verse :
shuo zhe ni de gu shi
ni han zhe lei er liu
ku hong de yan bei hou chang zhe
tai duo de fan you
ke ai de lian kong
bao gui de tian zhen yi bei
hai lang quan zou
tai kuai de cheng shou
zheng ge shi jie fang fu yi ge kong dong

Pre-Chorus :
yi ge ren lei liu
tong ku de ji mo
wo bu xiang zai rang
ni you zhe zhong gan shou
xin zhong de shi luo
ni zhe me ren shou
zhe zhong tong ku ni hai
xiang cheng duo jiu
xiang bu xiang gen wo yi qi zou?

Chorus :

Fang kai shou
Wang qian zou
Bie zai xiang guo qu hui
tong bu tong
Zhi yao ni kao zai wo xiong kou
Jiu bie zai xiang tai duo
Shou qian shou
Yi qi zhou
Wo bu hui zai rang ni zou mei tou
ni de xin peng zai wo shou zhong
Qin xiang xin wo
Wei lai hui you xiao rong

Cheers!

Benign.

2008-07-31T04:40:00.001-07:00

The examined tumours are benign.

This is good news :)

A few more tumours to go, and we'll know for sure.

Thank you, whoever is sitting up there.

I am grateful.

On my way.

2008-07-30T22:22:00.000-07:00

Its 1330 now.

Waiting for mommy to get dressed.

We'll be on our way soon.

Good luck Michelle.

I'm through! :)

2008-07-30T22:13:00.000-07:00

Although recent events have been gloomy, it seems there is still some positive things to mention!

Firstly, I'm through to the auditions... so.... ta da!

Quote :

That's A Star is the biggest regular online variety entertainment reality show to hit the internet. Unlike other reality shows, our show do not have just one winner. What we offer is a chance to have a career in the entertainment industry. Those who pass the auditions will be featured in the show for a maximum of 3 times, to test their popularity. After that, they get a job as a celebrity entertainer. Some of them will only be featured or once or twice in the show, depending on their popularity and the audience's acceptance. Their duration in the show will greatly depend on their fans and on their continuous improvement on their craft. Those who continue to improve their skills and increase their fan base will ensure a long career in show business. Ultimately, this is how we decide who will have movies, tv shows, commercial ads, music albums, concerts etc.

The url to the so called trailer is here :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3xwOKwQaAk

Yippee!

Outfield.

2008-07-30T17:49:00.000-07:00

My hands are infested with bump like features.

They itch.

I hate sandflies.

I hate outfield.

I hate jungles.

But I was not alone :)

Thanks guys!

Inspiration.

2008-07-26T05:45:00.000-07:00

Rushed out a chinese piece today.

It's called Wo Hai Zai.

Shall fine tune it when I have the time :)

Its more like a draft... so its far from perfect.

Hope you guys like it Xp...

Verse:

Feng yi ran bu ting liu
Xin hai shi bu yuan yong gan qu cheng shou
Ai de mei mong
tu ran sui po

Lei luo ru wo shou zhong
Wo tong hen zhi ji jue wang de nuo ruo
shuo bu chu kou
dui ni de gan shou

Chorus:

ye xu wo de shou bu neng gei ni
ni xiang yao de cai hong
Ke shi wo yuan zhuo
long zhao ni de tian kong
Zai ni bei hou mo mo shou hou
ye xu wo chang de ge ni yong yuan dou
bu hui ting de dong
Dan mei yi ge xuan lu ying chang zhe
wo men zhi jian mei yi ci de gan dong

Breakdown:

ni ting bu ting de dong?
wo xiang yao shuo de
dou ting liu zai kou zhong
shuo bu chu kou
piao fu zai feng zhong

Verse:

Wo bao chi zhe cheng mo
Ni shuo ni lei le
yi bu yuan qu mo suo
wo de nao hai zhong
hei an de jiao luo

Duo zai ni de shen hou
Bu zai hu ni
mei you fa xian wo de wen rou
Zhi yao wo neng gou
Kan dao ni de xiao rong

Chorus 2:

ye xu wo de shou bu neng gei ni
ni ke wang de mei mong
ke shi wo yuan zai ni
shen hou gen zhe zhou
yi zhi pei ni zou dao jing tou
ye xu ni bu hui kan jian wo suo
dui ni de wen rou
Wo zhi xi wang ni neng
xiao zhe xiang qian zou
Jui suan mei you hui guo tou

Outro:

Feng yi ran bu ting liu
Lei tou tou sui zhe
luo ye piao zou
wo bao chi cheng mo
an jing de tui hou

Yup that's it.

Composed and Recorded in 3 hours.

Viola!

Good Morning, Sunshine.

2008-07-25T22:26:00.000-07:00

The sun shines brightly today, and it is not lonely.

Accompanied by soft drizzling raindrops, it smiles radiantly to the world.

We all feel its warmth.

Aromatic tea, runny soft boiled eggs, crisp kaya toast, and waffles I never got to eat.

We chat like we always do, like long lost friends.

I'm glad you're still around.

:)

Let go.

2008-07-25T22:21:00.000-07:00

Let go.

Its your compulsive desire to protect your subordinates that drive you to be so tense.

Perhaps I am wrong, for I know nothing about you.

I don't even care, about you or what you are about.

This is not the first time you've stepped across the line to offend me.

I am not angry, neither am I disturbed.

I am simply amazed by how much you feel the need to in charge.

Perhaps its my own disregard for authority.

But you're no boss of me.

Persona.

2008-07-25T22:16:00.000-07:00

You're persona, is hilarious.

Right now, I'm smirking at your insecurities.

I pity you.

Yes I do.

I feel sorry for how you can't come to terms with who you are.

You can't even love yourself, let alone love somebody else.

Carry on lying, my dear.

The truth is out, and your pair of hands will never be able to hide the cracks that your relentless lies have created.

You are broken.

And like all broken things, you can never be repaired.

Hanging.

2008-07-24T07:10:00.000-07:00

You left me hanging, Dr Chua.

One week, doesn't seem very long.

Yet anticipation takes time by its hands and drags it backwards.

Burdened with the load, it can only manage to crawl the distance.

My heart goes out to you, as I wait here for your appearance.

Skinned knees, bruised elbows, bleeding wounds.

I will wait for Time to come.

Hope.

2008-07-23T11:55:00.000-07:00

Glimmer, Hope.

I believe you are somewhere in this pitch, black tunnel.

Burn brightly, Hope.

My dilated pupils are searching for you.

I need you now, Hope.

Are you even here?

Answer me, Hope.

Do you have ears to hear my pleas?

Is that you, Hope?

Do these resounding echoes belong to you?

Hope is that you?

Hope is that you?

Hope is that you?

Hope is that

Hope is

Hope.

...

Bloody Mary.

2008-07-23T11:43:00.000-07:00

Bloody Mary.

Oh how you have intoxicated me, and clouded my senses.

Temptation, is a strong adversary.

And you, have disarmed my shield and taken my arms.

I can resist, no more.

You have stood by my side, tears or smiles alike.

I am most grateful, Bloody Mary, though you would not accept my appreciation.

My love for your taste, your body, your aroma, cannot be described with mere words of description.

Thus, to savour this glass of fine liquor, I will have to sip sparingly.

Roll it over my tongue, and fully experience the sensuality of the drink.

Swallow the small mouthful in a gulp, which sends a bubble of heat soaring into the depths of my stomach.

Bloody Mary.

Will you accompany me for tonight, and many nights to come?

Warmth.

2008-07-23T11:37:00.000-07:00

Thank you.

For I feel your warmth.

Your confusion, your worry, your anger, your flair, your smiles, your hilarious facial expressions, your dao-ness, your pretty eyes.

Although it means nothing constructive towards solving the problem at hand, it seeps through the cracks of my hardened, armoured exterior and infests me with a newfound feeling of comfort.

This is new.

For I feel your warmth.

Thank you.

Ghost.

2008-07-23T11:29:00.001-07:00

I am like a ghost.

I drift between the planes of reality and fantasy, I exist within the liminalities of nature.

I am here, but to you, am I?

On particularly silent nights, even ghosts feel the lonely cold bite into their death infested souls.

And so they attempt to reach out from the grave, and lay their icy fingers on warm throbbing throats.

Masked by the howling wind, my whispers are hidden between the gusts in the night.

Can you hear me?

The moon is blood red tonight.

And this sense of foreboding, will be proved at sunlight.

Tomorrow.

2008-07-23T07:09:00.000-07:00

What does tomorrow hold?

I don't know.

Would I rather know this beforehand?

Or would I rather just wait, and see?

I don't know.

What does tomorrow hold?

The gravity of the situation could be, as light as a feather, or it could crush me.

But do I have a choice in this?

No, I don't.

Tomorrow, is an inevitable time bomb.

And I can only wait.

Details on audition.

2008-07-19T21:51:00.000-07:00

So the website I found the audition off is at http://www.thatsastar.com

Honestly, I don't know how large scale it is, but it seems interesting and promising enough for me.

From what I understand, its concept is to promote local talents and increase public awareness about the local entertainment scene in Singapore.

There will be shows hosted weekly with successful star-wannabes, and the deciding factor of whether they return to the show next week depends largely on their fan base.

On a lighter note, please support me!

LOL.

4 more days.

2008-07-19T21:48:00.001-07:00

4 more days.

Here it comes.

I've had enough of this bullshit.

2008-07-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

I am 21 this year.

I can't say I'm a man, responsible enough to support a family, strong enough to hold his own.

But I'm learning.

I am somewhat mature, yet childish in some ways.

I am here to do my job.

Anything besides that, I take it as a bonus.

I can be your friend, but it doesn't mean I have to be beside you all the time.

If you need my help, I will be there.

If you need advice, I can give you my opinion.

If you need a hug, I can give it to you.

But I am not your belonging, that you can fling against the wall when you feel like it.

I trust you, enough to say things I normally wouldn't say to anyone else.

I treasure you, as my friend.

Yet, you disappointed me.

This type of nonsense existed when I was 14, wearing shorts and carrying a backpack to school every day.

That phase of my life is over.

I have only 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 mouth and 2 legs.

I can't be everywhere at once, although I wish I could.

So forgive me if I've neglected you.

But at the end of the day, I can't stop you from hating me.

Go ahead, because I've honestly had enough of this bullshit.

Audition, SUCCESSFUL!

2008-07-19T08:22:00.000-07:00

Hurray!

I did it!

The first song I sang was The Calling - Wherever You Will Go.

Simple, easy, yet it seems my style was not to their liking.

Apparently I delivered it properly, but there was room for improvement.

What really got me the place was the original I sang, Delectable Fantasies.

It was flattering to have judges impressed over my own piece of work, and for a moment I felt really, really happy.

This could be the light in the dark for me.

Audition

2008-07-18T05:38:00.000-07:00

This is my second audition.

Hopefully I make it for this one.

Wish me luck!

Sway-ed.

2008-07-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

I am damn sway lor.

I sprained my ankle lor.

I was forced to play soccer lor.

Because not enough people lor.

So they make me go lor.

Den I kanna sprain lor.

Sibeh sway lor, you mei you?

Sian lor.

Cannot play basketball lor.

Cannot run lor.

Cannot take IPPT tomorrow lor.

Cannot go cycling lor.

Cannot go out and walk because its damn paiseh lor.

Cannot sit on the toilet bowl properly cos pain lor.

Sad lor.

I am damn sway lor.

Lor lor lor.

Someday I'll go too.

2008-07-14T11:35:00.001-07:00

Will you miss me?

Great. Big. Smile.

2008-07-14T11:30:00.000-07:00

Great. Big. Smile.

Even though I'm not happy.

Great. Big. Smile.

So that no one will worry.

Great. Big. Smile.

I'll show to everybody.

What if?

2008-07-14T11:26:00.001-07:00

So many what if's.

They flood my mind, when I am alone.

You'd be surprised how much I am alone.

Even when I'm with you, with them, with anyone.

I am alone.

And the what if's, never stop haunting me.

December's Rain is never forgiving.

Happy Birthday!

Fool.

If I am to help the world, who is to help me?

Update

More Songs.

Time is running out.

I Don't Know.

Random thoughts

Hmm.

Newly uploaded vids.

I'm sorry.

And so, I said nothing, since then.

OH YES AND I FORGOT TO MENTION!

I'm back.

Still infected.

Officially Sick.

方大同

方大同 is godly.

Fingers.

Overwhelmed.

Persistence.

Ben and Jerry's Performance Part 2

Music.

Hiatus.

An Orphan's Wish

Internet is down.

New Song

Sentosa!

English.

There is however, one singular event.

Happy Birthday Evan.

It took me so long.

Cover of Wo Huai Nian De

孙燕姿 我怀念的 LYRICS

Auditions.

Love Story Cover

Home.

MIA

I'm back!

Bon Voyage?

Inevitable.

Recorded.

Recording.

Hope it helped.

Self-Reminders.

Mom's Birthday!

Home.

It's been awhile.

Kbox after midnight.

New Song. Again.

More more more!!

More Pics from ThatsAStar!

More ThatsaStar pics!

Melodies.

Money.

ThatsAStar updates.

New Song. Finally.

Busy Busy Busy

Competition.

Everyone.

Live Webcast

Waves.

Seconds.

It begins.

Fun with Cameras!

Field Camp is over!

4am.

Ages.

Freedom.

Memories.

It finally ends.

Lullaby For The Broken

I'm here.

It's just a simple story.

On dark, lonely nights.

Dry your tears.

I'll miss you.

Inspiration x 3 !!!

Inspiration Inspiration!

孙燕姿我怀念的 LYRICS